Okay, Confession Time.....

I have been throwing myself a big o'l pity party. There I said it. I have become sister pout! Like a tantrum throwing toddler I have been BAD.



See, Eric has been dealing with some health issues.... for a few years now..... and he finally decided he needed to see a doctor about it. So, over the last couple of months he has been seeing a physician and had several tests run. His blood-work showed up Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever..... not like he has it now mind... but that in the last few years he has had it (we think we remember when too) and now it shows up in his blood-work..... but that is just a side issue at this point. See, the doctor is treating Eric for Fibromyalgia. Yes, men can get it too. Its a bit rarer to see a man with it, but it does happen. Now, Eric is taking meds to help with the pain he has just been dealing with for the last few years. He has only been on them a very short while, but already he says he is seeing a small difference. (Thank You, Lord!) So, we are hoping that with ongoing treatment he will be able to live more comfortably that he has in the last few years.

Now, the part about me being BAD......... see, with this all going on with Eric and not knowing how it may all turn out..... we had to discuss the thought of me going back into the work force. ( Now, see, I was our main support for the first few years of our marriage.... while Eric was tossed about from job loss to job loss then in school after the Levi's plant closed and he got a severence package to do so that the company paid for.) I worked long hard hours for several years in a high stress job that although I was well suited for and overall I did like..... well, lets just say I got a bad burnout. ..........................................................................................................................................................
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....................................................................... so, after having the whole "we might have to look at you going back to work" talk that we had ...... I have been a very bad girl. Like a kid throwing a bit of a tantrum..... I have been taking out my fears, frustrations, and bad attitude out on those around me that I love best. (Sorry, Eric, Kids and many friends) I let Satan get a hold of me and bring me down and it has taken a few good kicks in the rear over the last few days to make me realize that God has been patiently waiting for me to take all that to HIM. To ask that He take all my worries, fears and frustrations and hold me close and tell me that He is working it all out for the best. I don't know what the future may hold for us..... but, I do know that whatever direction we find our family going in will be because we are following HIS will for our lives.


Please keep our family in prayer.